It awaits.

:)

boom boom boom

even brighter than the moon moon moon

song of the week.

*Gasp*

It's the end of Week13 already!

I'll see you very soon doomsweek Week14!

几米笔下的12星座

天秤座

“窗外放晴了，屋内仍继续下雨。

我微笑，并不等于我快乐。

我撑伞，并非只是为了避雨。

你永远都不懂我在想什么。

我想拥抱每个人，但我得先温暖我自己，请容忍我。

因为我已在练习容忍你。”

每天都在不厌其烦的维持着自己优雅的风度吗？面对讨厌的人，你天天练习微笑；面对讨厌的事情，你从来都是当仁不让的接受。

A Torture.

I realized I torture myself with last minute design works and end up regretting so much for not having more time to do better. I am constantly mentally tortured by myself throughout these 3 years in taking up Architecture. Having the urge to tear everything down, to smash anything or even to go for free-falling. It makes me a lifeless person. I don't wanna die infront of AutoCAD or 3dsMAX! I know I shouldn't be fooling around when I made the decision on such long term commitment, but I just see more things as I go by. I don't mean to give it up but just hoping that the super strong passion to what I do, which I strongly believe lies deeeeeeeep down within me, will arise and till then I'll be filled with happiness in what I want to do. I shall see to that day!

WHY IS IT SO STRESSFUL DOING DESIGNS???

Any suggestion in getting non-stop inspirations in designing?Help me out. Thanks. I'm crazy, crazy for Architecture.

蟬想 - 苏打绿

詞曲：吳青峯

某個夏天　一座花園　沾滿塵土的翅膀

那棵名以為我的樹　招惹了一陣蟬榻

春天氾濫的痕跡　淪喪的溫床

愛呀　弄污了一個又一個胸膛　粉飾魔鬼的幻想

是我背叛地心磁場

讓歸巢的白鴿　無法再回航　重傷的魚在泥沼中掙扎

夏蟬猛把天地叫窄　容不下過去未來

蝴蝶夫人白費等待　換來斷氣的絢爛

點破容易看透難　都一身糾纏

愛呀　弄污了一個又一個胸膛　粉飾魔鬼的幻想

慾望掠奪後更窮涼　再認不得路回家

我弄污愛情的胸膛　背叛多年等待的夢想　再不能愛　也是活該

只能短暫　所以大嚷

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Used to have a dream....

to be a carpenter....who carves violins.

and have a wall full of 'em!

I might have lost the passion in playing it

but it somehow still lives in me.

Guess it will be a dream that will never come true.

ahh..

I'll be there... c:

so wasted.

i feel so wasted these 2 days.

Been fairying around.

I.have.to.stop.

Seriously.

Feels like puking.

Feels like puking infront of AutoCAD!

damn.

I wish I have 2 more days!

or maybe 1.

T.T

8 weeks and 1 day from now.

THE day will come with the opening of the long-awaited fairy life.

I'm gonna:

1st: To IKEA for meatballs!

2nd: Karaoke!

3rd: To the cinema!

4th: Calling dad & mom!

5th: Happily packing ALL my stuff for good!

Till then...I'LL

♥

MY LIFE!

*Wait till you see my c: !

I turned everything into sashimi.

Due to Japanese Cuisine: The Presentation of Originality.

I turned everything into sashimi in my dreams.

Inspire me please.

Tools..Inspire me please!

Imagine.

You may say that I'm a dreamer.
But I'm not the only one.
I hope someday you'll join us.
And the world will live as one.

睡不着

睡不着就是不祥的预兆。

好累！

T.T

Me against my final semester.

Damn. Final semester. 30% anticipating graduation and life after that, 70% scared!

HELP.

I'm stressed to the max!

Final studio separated from good friends. The good thing is I'm under my favorite lecturer for tutorial sessions but the bad thing is when there's a crit going on I'll be arranged to be crit-ed by other lecturers who would make my life so bad that I might end up crying for hours.

I have a confused soul now to be glad or sad.

Anyway to be on the bright bright side.....

I will worker even harder than me myself can imagine. It's the once in a lifetime shot now, I HAVE TO DO IT! Work like there's no tomorrow.

Bless me to get through all these smoothly.

*Prays hard hard hard*

;(

Must watch movies.

I'm in the sudden mood to watch old must-watch movies these few months and realized I've actually missed out many great movies. Few months ago I watched Breakfast at Tiffany's, it's quite alright. BUT The Pianist and Schindler's List are two great movies! Both movies have the same setback period which was during the WWII, they have quite many brutal scenes but overall both are great movies. Both movies ended up talking bout what happened eventually coz they were based on true stories. It's really shocking to actually SEE how people were murdered without a strong reason, both movies portrayed out the fear that the Jews had every single day of getting shot at any random time. We're lucky we don't have to get through that kind of fear and have not any clue of the future.

A great quote from Schindler's List:

Whoever saves one life, saves the world entire.

Watch both The Pianist and Schindler's List if you haven't. You won't regret.

END

end end end.

FAST!

好久没将饿过了！

Feed my Imagination.

Am practicing to feed my imagination frequently with images of different designs!

To get ideas fast.

Wallpaper changed!

So I'm back here again.

2 months of internship at Atelier ADT Arkitek seriously gave me understandings far far beyond what lecturers of my school teach. I'm really lucky to be given the opportunity to learn and the people there were really good, even though they were busy with shit lots of work they would still make sure that I'm helping them out even with the simplest task given such as hatching drawings. (Better than ignoring me!) Calculating areas for high-rise building was a killer! Master layout designing was really cool, this is when you get to see the magic in turning a flat empty piece of land to live! Awesome, huh? And I realized that I take pleasures in collecting colour-printed A1 and A0 size drawings!HAHA..

NOW I'm back to school. Thinking back to the last semesters which I struggled through really brings goosebumps all over me. Sleepless nights, super stress, insomnia etc. For 2 1/2 years, I've been struggling. And now I've come to the end of my Diploma, I MADE IT THROUGH TILL THE FINAL SEMESTER!!! T.T

My speech:

I wanna thank my parents for listening to me crap and not hanging up my calls. I wanna thank Sheryl, my SENIOR, who shared her experiences with me and helped me solve problems, always remember the printing shop's name and bitch about people together. I wanna thank my sister who brings me out for good dinner and letting me stay at her place during some weekends. I wanna thank my friends at school too, for still being my friends ever since semester 1. I love u people. Thank you, thank you. You're far too kind. HAHA..ANYWAY KEEP SUPPORTING ME PLEASE!

Things I'm gonna do on TUESDAY!!!

1. Call Mum and Dad and report to them on how happy and relieved I am and how my work tortured me for more than a week!
2. Talk to Casey!!! I miss him soooo much!!! ;(
3. Head to Sunway Pyramid for dinner!
4. Pack my stuff and prepare to move to Daphne's place for 2 months!
5. Feed my iPod!
6. Explain to Daphne on how happy and relieved I am and how my work tortured me for more than a week!
7. SLEEEEEEEEEP in peace!

* I'm SUPER looking forward to the days AFTER TUESDAY!!!!!!!To end these sleepless nights with almost ANYTHING that haunts me!!To be freeeee!!!To not have to look at the same shit again!!!

I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!! FUCK ARCHITECTURE!!!!!!

Tick Tick Tick

Time is ticking.......

I hope this helps.LOL.

WORK!

Work! Stewpeed!!!

It's now or NEVER!

*damn. How I wish it'll be over soon.

I'm hired! Finally.

I'm finally hired by an architect firm for my internship!

After worrying for so long,

with the big big help of my best loved sister,

I'm FINALLY hired!

Now I'm super looking forward to the interview AND to start workin'!

*happy* *happy* *happy*

Sa-tur-day!

Target : Guat

Mission : Change her style and get out to have some fun!

okay..it has been a very hectic and super tired week so we decided to do something crazy. A surprise appearance of ourselves (me, Ting and Fenty) at Guat's place and a series of trying-on-the-dresses then off we head OUT! FUN!

L-R : Guat, Fenty, Ting and ME.

People feel happy when they are dressed up prettily. c:

Just Because of Rm40.

THAT kind of workload and sleepless night just for rm40???

我.不.干.了!

妈的！王八蛋！浪费我的精神和时间！

I almost forgot about my change.

Guess what peeps?

I just cut my hair short last Saturday!

Big change eh?

Well..it's about time!

Series of Unfortunate Events.

Remember the books of A Series of Unfortunate Events?Where Count Olaf keeps coming back in each of the stories after every kind of escapes with different kinds of hilarious disguises?Well, there has been a series of unfortunate events happening to my life lately. It comes to me in different kinds of disguises too. It has made me lose hope, see clearer and clearer of the REAL person in the people around me, the urge of giving up my dream(which is also the dream of the people I care and love) , etc. Things just happened out of expectations and the only thing you can do is just to move on, to get through it. But it still takes a long long time to heal the heart when you've tried so hard and things just turned out to be worse than expected. Lucky to Klaus, Violet and Sunny that they are in it together.

I'm all alone in this war.

I don't believe in "Don't Worry, You Can Do It." ( It has ALWAYS turned out to be my kind of curse to make things worse or addition to more unfortunate events to my life.)

I only believe in "Just Keep Trying."

If you really mean the whole heart of you to encourage people, I think "Just Keep Trying" has the stronger sense of giving the person to just keep following the heart and enjoy anything that happens along the way. I think it means more than "Don't Worry, You Can Do It.". It sounds more sarcastic. Even the sentence gives me a feeling of an end. -ing is better. c:

To: My Series of Unfortunate Events

I don't give a shit of you coming in ANY disguises anymore. You are just YOU. Any kind of disguises won't change the way I hate you. You'll go down eventually one day! *piak*

Hate,

Michelle.

The BIGGEST thief of all.

Time, is the biggest thief of all.
It steals away everything.

wo hen re!!!

WO HEN RE!!!!

WO YAO LENG QI!!!

WO YAO SHUI JIAO!!!

SHUI LAI JIU WO??!!

After 12.

After 12am, it used to be the day's scariest time when I was little. I'd always be in bed far ealier than 12am. When I couldn't fall asleep after 12am I'd be scared. Scared of the dark, scared of the creatures that come out during the dark. Lying in my bed frozen as I feared the creatures might know that I'm awake and come find me.The dark seemed to last alot longer back then.

Now, the night is short. Filled with unfinished work and you're all alone with them. No creatures no anything but unfinished work. You cannot sleep, no you cannot sleep even if you're exhausted, you're frustrated, you're stucked or whatever.

You just can't sleep.

H.E.L.P!

what it's like?

been wondering all the time..

what it's like to be playing music for the rest of my life?

And practice is the only thing I do everyday for life?

what happens when your favorite things don't go well together?

*sigh* you might just needa consider which is the 1st in priority and give up the rest for the moment.

And so it is time. ;(

STOP SINGING ALREADY!!!!DAMNIT!!!

and i'm referring to the same person i was talking bout in my previous post.

you may say I'm a dreamer,

but I'm not the only one. c:

Sick when things aren't right!

checki-out!

Check it out yo! This is what we did last last last week!!!

I.cannot.stand.it.

PLEASE do not sing.

At least not with the volume I can hear.

It really annoys people when it sounds so terribly bad.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

RESPECT the ears around you.

CARE for the environment.

The world would be a better place if you just STOP!

No I don't wanna battle

From beginning to end

I don't wanna cycle

Recycle revenge

I don't wanna follow

Death and all his friends

here we go again.

here we go again,

to MAYDAY's concert!

*excited*

we have to.

we push ourselves because we have to.

and I think I found my answer.

After a deep thought on "what have I sacrificed for archi?"

and a long conversation and thoughts sharing with Sheryl,

I think I kinda found my answer.

My feelings, are the things I sacrifice for it.

sacrifice.

do I even have ANYTHING to sacrifice for what I'm doing now?

or

what HAVE I sacrificed for it?

jackass.

don't be cocky and think you're all that!

JACKASS!!!

so you think you can just walk away like the words didn't come out from your FARKIN' mouth?!

watch out for your library bill! coz I'm gonna make you pay!!!

ASSHOLE!!!

*when you want to mess with me, make sure you don't have anything with me!!!

when it comes to emo....

when it comes to emo and feeling shitty for the whole day...

there's always a friend to do crazy stuff with you!

that's really good.

KFC today was PERFECT!

the dress today...was funny but cool.

DO NOT wait.

DO NOT depend.

so don't look back in anger.

What a big hit!damn!

Joshua Radin- We Were Here

Sundrenched World

Star Mile

Everything'll Be Alright (Will's Lullaby)

These Photographs

Closer

Today

Winter

Someone Else's Life

Amy's Song

What If You

Only You

I personally super like Winter. :)

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Thank YOU for rocking my world for 6 long years!

Especially to : My 6-year old white podsy.

After 6 long years of providing music to my life, it's time for you to rest. :)

I'll forever remember you even though I've replaced you.

You ROCK! forever.

Love always,

Michelle.

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for.